fostering a grateful spirit

"If you have good thoughts they will shine out of your face like sunbeams, and you will always look lovely." -Roald Dahl

disclaimer and day 2…

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Before I get too far into this year of gratefulness, I wanted to post a quick disclaimer. I am trying very hard to focus on all the blessings and things that I love about my life, but my life is by no means perfect (or even close). I have bad days, I get overly frustrated about stupid things, the hubs and I argue, and I have some difficult things to deal with. I was recently diagnosed with fibromyalgia, and am struggling to get used to and accept the fact that my neurons have decided to cause me pain every day for no reason at all. I do not and will not pretend that these things don’t bother me, and I may even post about them sometimes. I will not post about them to complain, to bring you down, or to get sympathy, but because I think it’s important to be real, and real life is not all sunshine and roses. It’s messy, heartbreaking and exhausting. BUT– even on my worst days, I believe that life is beautiful and that Jesus is constantly making beautiful things out of ugly, painful things, and so I’m choosing to focus on those things. Please bear with me on the days where my real is more bad than good, and try to understand that focusing on the good, beautiful, life-giving things is going to be a struggle some days. I hope and pray that as this year goes on, it will become easier for all of us to see the things we have to be thankful for.

Okay, so day 2…
Today I am thankful that the hubs is behind me 100%, all the time. Even when he doesn’t understand or even necessarily care about the things that matter to me, he is unfalteringly supportive of anything that I love. When I want to help a friend with her awesome floral design business because it brings me joy to make beautiful things, even if it means the hubs eats peanut butter and honey sandwiches for dinner all week, he encourages me to do it. Or when I feel like we are supposed to sponsor a child through this awesome organization, even though we’re trying hard to spend less money, he gets excited about sweet Abdiel because he can see it fills my heart with joy. Sometimes we make each other crazy, but I am so, so, so grateful that when push comes to shove, I know that he’s my biggest fan. Love like that can cover a lot of flaws. So thanks, hubs. Please know that my heart is constantly grateful for your support, love, and encouragement. Your spirit gives me the ability to take chances I wouldn’t otherwise, because I know that no matter how it goes, you’re behind me.

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One thought on “disclaimer and day 2…

  1. Sorry to hear about your recent diagnosis! I was dx’d back in ’08, but I think I’ve had it since high school or so. No fun at all! However, my experience has been that it does get easier as you pay attention to your body and learn what causes you to flare up and what helps you to feel better. Here’s hoping that you have way more good days than bad!

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